johanalee

So I was looking up fat nudes to see if I could get some inspiration.  I must say that 90% of what's on here is utter and total shit.  With titles like Blimp butt, horny fat male, lardo, big titty kitty and etc...  I was nothing but appalled.  Then I was enraged.  Some of these drawings AND their tags are so degrading.  Also, a pregnant woman is NOT fat, she is pregnant.  There IS a difference.  I'm just wondering if the people posting these drawings realize that it's hurtful and uncool.  They probably don't give a shit.  So I will look elsewhere for inspiration.  When I get better at drawing maybe I can post better, tasteful drawings.

I have decided NOT to make New Years Resolutions this year....
But instead to make a few promises/challenges to myself...
1. I promise to spend more time praising Austin...and less time criticizing his faults(Cuz he's a good kid....we just butt heads a lot).
2. I challenge myself to go to the gym at least 5 times a week. That being said I promise to go a minimum of 4....
3. I am challenging myself to lose some of that baggage that I keep carrying around with me(not talking weight here).
4. I promise to swear less(Lord knows that's going to be hard).
5. I challenge myself to declutter my house and actually dust more than once every 3 months(yes I know..ewww!!).
6. I challenge myself to be a more positive and active parent in my sons life.
7. I challenge myself to make adjustments in my life that will keep me more positive and focused.
8. I challenge myself to organize the 300 skeins of yarn I have.
So...here's what I want from my friends and family....
I fully expect 2012 to be free of deaths of family and friends.....
So ya'll stay healthy and drive careful.....

Well..  I haven't put anything down in my journal in a long time.....  My gram passed away in July...  And it seems that my life his just snowballed into a shitstorm of nothingness....  I can truly say I have never felt this much like shit since my husband left me back in 2004(and even though we are back together...it sucks more now I think)....  Since I lost my dad...  I feel lost...not myself...disconnected and alone...  My job is terrible...we get broke into...I have to call customers and apologize for something I have no control over(but I wished I coulda beat the guy that did it to death with a baseball bat)...I ended up in the hospital from that stress...my roof at worked leaked...and destroyed most of my clothes...and all my Christmas presents...  I can't rebuy anything... because everything I had went into them....  And how the fuck do you tell your kid...  Hey bud...  Sorry...  Because we live paycheck to paycheck...  You won't be having a Christmas this year...  Oh and it's peanut butter sandwiches again this month...   I can't even buy a fucking heater for my house... SO if I don't post anything awhile...  It's probably because I had another nervous breakdown...or worse.

Well...  I am kinda in this weight loss competition guys....
Could use some help....
There are three parts to it...
Weight loss, blogging, and the amount of people who vote for me)...
So far I haven't pushed too much to ask people to vote for me....
But...  I need some help now...
SO I am posting my Blog link...

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And the link to vote for me at(4th from the bottom...  JOHANA MING in Wichita falls, TX...my pic is there as well).

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Pretty please with sugar on top vote for me!
And pass it on!!
I really want to win this thing...
I have a tumor that has to go...
And the only way I am going to be able to pay for it is to win this contest!!

A few weeks ago I put together a resource hub page after reading about a girl who hung herself.  Such a beautiful soul snuffed out because she thought she was alone in the world.  So I did some research and found some pretty good articles and web pages.  I put them all together on a hub and put my story out there.  The worst thing you can do is give up!  There is help out there.  Bullies thrive on the harm they do to you...  Don't let them win!  And don't give up!!

Here is my page....  If it helps even one person...  Then I am getting back at the bullies after all these years!

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